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| so im just sittin here wondering can life get worse? hmm i dont think so!!! This weekend has been the worst EVER!! First i spent the whole night Friday sick becuz Rocky was mad at me i couldnt eat or freakin sleep..then saturday he broke up with me which broke my heart (you would think id be used to it by now) and then last night i just heard abou the car wreck and Chris Miller dying..i talk to that kid everyday in English UHHH i hate life!!
Ya so i do still love Rocky but what can i do about it..i guess i would rather be friends with him knowing it hurts like hell then to be nothing at all......well my senior pics should be coming in tell me if you want one kk..love yall |
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| ok guys so i was wrong AGAIN surprise surprise....i just wish i didnt mess up so much i hate my life!!! i love Rocky so freakin much i wish he would realize that..well i walked by him today and hit him and i thought he knew i was joking but he didnt and im soo sorry about that i wish i would of never done that!! i dont think he believes me that im sorry but i truly am..you guys dont even understand this week has been the best week EVER because i actually felt that everything that was falling apart was in place and then i have to go and mess things up....the only thing i wanted was to be happy when my dad comes home and the way things are going i dont think i will be...i just wish sorry was good enough or that i was good enough but i dont know if that will ever happen...but i just wanted to tell Rocky that i was really sorry and that i love him soo much!! i just hope he believes me!! well im gonna go talk to yall later
**I hate all this pain and i hate all this sorrow i want to die today so i wont have to face tomorrow..closr to the edge i slowly crawl i keep on moving until finally i fall...im flying through the air feeling the wind beneath my feet knowing that when i hit the bottom the pain will finally cease. <---ok thats part of a peom i wrote just to tell yall how i feel right now!!!
Rocky-i wish you could realize how much i love you..maybe you dont want to i dont know..but this is killing me you dont even know..i hate myself so freakin bad i just wish my life would end..im sick of screwing up every good thing that happens to me..im sorry hunnie i wish you would believe me...but i cant beg you to believe me you have to realize that on your own all i can say is that i truly am sorry and that i will love you no matter what!! |
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| Well i think i have the best boyfriend in the whole world!! i love him soo freakin much..Rocky u make me so happy!! ur AMAZING..you have helped me through so much without even knowing it..thanks for always being there!! i hope we are together for a real long time because you make me happier than i have ever been and i dont want to go again without being happy!! I hope that i make you as happy as you make me haha!! well thats all i wanted to say and that i love you sooo much!! **MUAH**
Quotes:
& your her entire world kid
dont hurt me babe
you mean so much to me
& i dont think i could
take another heart break
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| hey guys whats up?? nothin much here just sittin here being bored as always!! Well i got to talk to my dad last night and i am so freakin happy!! He doesnt have to leave until the first and thats still sad but he said he gets to take leave on the 23rd so he is going to try to come visit before he has to go!! I AM SOO EXCITED!! HAHA!! that is what i asked for Christmas so WOO HOO!! it depends on the weather so it better not get bad of i will be soo sad cuz i really want to see him before he goes!! Well i dont know what im doing today..Rocky is supposed to come over but we will see what happens..gotta go luv yall <3 MOI
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